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One is privileged at times spending the day just lazing around, reading snippets of gossip on my news feed ( I know, I know you would say, sometimes they are not worth-reading at all) and I hate it that FB changed the rules again. You can even see several timelines where your friends commented on a post, no matter how irrelevant or how unimportant they are to you. If not for AFCC, I would quit FB but I have an apostolate online that is even more important than the nonsense shout outs that I oftentimes see there.

Happy Sunday!

It’s been raining on and off the whole day. I was caught in a downpour when the mass ended early this morning. Time to bring out those sturdy umbrellas, the rainy season is finally here. I can feel the wind on my face.  I had breakfast at Jollibee ordering a favorite combination of fried rice, longganisa, pouched egg and a cup of really hot chocolate. Where else  would you find a free copy of Philippine Star for morning news but at Jollibee? I am afraid to admit though that sometimes it’s only the headlines or opinion pages that catch my attention. There are two writers that I admire there, Lucy Torres’ byline Love Lucy and Barbara Gonzales’ Second Wind. Lucy’s articles are a joy to read –  such varied and rich subjects like her married life, her only daughter Juliana, her penchant for crafts, the early years she spent growing up in Ormoc and other stories that sometimes make me smile and laugh and get inspired. She extends the Christmas season from early September to as late as February the following year. Barbara  Gonzales says that she is in her 70’s, a former executive at McCann Erickson and writes her piece every Saturday. She teaches writing too but she says that the way she teaches is far more different than the way you learn in a classroom seating. I’ve long wanted to attend her class but I find the fee too stiff for my budget. She lives alone and enjoys what she does every day  sharing about her life getting on years and growing older. She makes jewelries too and sells them in bazaars.  When I get to be her age, I hope I would enjoy every day like she does, making crafts, playing solitaire (not my cup of tea though), updating her journal, enjoying occasional visits from the grand kids. She leads a quiet life but she is happy.

Happy rainy Sunday. Maybe, now is the perfect excuse to drink a hot cup of coffee. I get nervous when it rains cats and dogs. I hope there are no flooded areas in the metro.

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Can’t wait for tomorrow.

After almost two months of not seeing Nate, they are finally coming over tomorrow to celebrate Josef’s birthday with us. I suggested to Nissa if they could stay here overnight so she could rest, without thinking of cleaning and doing the weekend tasks in the kitchen.  Sometimes, two days of rest is not enough, the weekend should be stress-free and relaxing. Anyway, I am looking forward to playing with Nate again, discovering what he has learned the past two months and seeing how fast he has grown into a very active toddler. It’s a period of discovery and exploration for our kid who’s not so little anymore.

I had a long chat with my priest son this afternoon who is attending a mission summit in Letran-Calamba. We talked of his assignment in Calayan. Time flies, a year is gone and in a few months he will be transferring to another mission. “Where to next?”, I asked and he answered “Camiguin”, another island in the north which is still a part of the Babuyanes Islands. He said it is more laid back, simple life to speak of but as equally beautiful as Calayan Island. He is happy to learn that I am still active at our Catholic Community page  and still share my thoughts with  the world through my blog.  I laughed when he wrote back “OP Lay” meaning a Dominican lay preacher – preaching through mass media.  I’ve always said even when I started this blog that if I could inspire a single soul out there, then I am fulfilled and happy. Josef is blessed, a mass intention will be offered on his birthday this Sunday.  We are all blessed of course because  we are always included in Lovell’s prayers.  He always tells me, “bawal ma-depress at ma-stress”  I know all that but sometimes life is hard  and it is even harder to cope.  “Stay in the grace of our Lord”. What lovely words! What was I thinking, negative thoughts should have no place in my heart.

I’ve found some amazing blogs here today – some blogs I followed, clicked a lot of posts that I liked.  Inspiring words and  beautiful stories that warm the heart.  And here’s a quote for you today.

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A blessed and happy weekend to all.

 

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It’s good to be back.

I haven’t been feeling well the past days so blogging has taken a back seat. Arrggh…the aches and pains of getting old. It’s quite nice to read other people’s thoughts  once again and  look at the lovely photos after a self-imposed absence from blogging.  Sometimes, I feel so lazy to even boot the computer and  check my e-mails.  I just checked my stats and saw some previous posts which kept appearing on my most read/top posts.  This blog entry is actually my 1675th one.  I think I’ve already covered almost every subject that I wanted to share in cyberspace.

In between taking naps now and then and drinking lots and lots of water and buko juice (young coconut juice), I’ve finished three books in four days. I would have wanted to visit Nissa’s family last  weekend but I always find it a challenge to commute on my own.  Nate had fever too, so with Nissa so we survived on Viber, Skype and text messages. Thank God we are okay now. Hopefully, we could be together either on Saturday or Sunday to celebrate Josef’s 31st birthday.

A friend recently commented on one of my notes at FB about the books I have on my list. I couldn’t remember how many books I’ve read before including those  of Nissa’s  that she used to collect (Charmed series, Sweet Valley High and Sweet Valley University).  You would probably classify them  now as YA books, chick lit or contemporary ones. I grew up on M & B  when I was in high school and all books were borrowed from the library. I have some all-time favorites though. They taught me so many things. Here’s my short list:

1. Markings – Dag Hammarskjold
2. Seasons in the Sun – Rod McKuen
3. All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten – Robert Fulghum
4. The Little Prince – Antoine de Saint Exupery
5. The Prophet – Kahlil Gibran
6. Tuesdays With Morrie – Mitch Albom
7.  Letting Go – Morrie Schwartz
8. The Heart of Loving – Eugene Kennedy
9. Gift from the Sea – Anne Morrow Lindbergh
10. Jonathan Livingston Seagull – Richard Bach
11. Why Am I Afraid to Tell You Who I Am – John Powell
12. Simple Moments – Fr. Jerry Orbos, SVD
13. Charlotte’s Web – E. B. White
14. I Like You Just Because – Albert Nimeth, OFM
15. Man’s Search for Meaning – Viktor E. Frankl
16. The Fountainhead – Ayn Rand
17. Embraced By the Light – Betty J. Eadie
18. It Was On Fire When I Lay Down On It – Robert  Fulghum
19. A Christmas Carol – Charles Dickens
20. Grow Something Besides Old – Laurie Beth Jones

I actually blogged about this on 15 Books, 15 Minutes  years ago (list of 15 books you can recall in 15 minutes). I hope  you’re not getting bored  reading a blog post all about books. I just started on my second book of Lisa Genova called Love Anthony and it’s about autism. Remember Still Alice?

 

 

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That gentle calm you experience listening to good old music and re-reading some lines from a book of poems. I’ve often blogged about books and music together. They go hand in hand when I want to  just relax my mind from the topsy-turvy world of the living.  Believe me, there are moments when you just want to listen to the soothing music of yesteryears – be they be instrumental, ballads, slow rock , mellow touch, it doesn’t matter much as long as I could divert my attention for a while but of course it is better when  you listen to old-time favorites.  There are times when singing along is the best way to do it or otherwise I let the music flow from one end to the next.

Ah, Rod McKuen.

You may not be familiar with the man  but he was so popular back in the 70’s. Years ago, I  found two of his books  (Alone and Seasons In the Sun) that I treasure until now.  He was an American singer-songwriter, musician, poet.  His words  (he wrote about solitude, spirituality, love)  sometimes make me cry.

“It’s nice sometimes to open up the heart a little and let some hurt come in. It proves you’re still alive.”

“Eternity sneaks in her arms full of wild promises.”

No speeches have been written for us and so we never speak.

But still they move in front of me.

Unmet.

Detached.

What common language could we know

I wonder

What words of sensibility are left?”

One other small volume that I keep re-reading is Gift From The Sea by Anne Morrow Lindbergh. Finding words of wisdom , the profound need sometimes to be alone and reacquaint and listen to your inner voice, the voice that you sometimes hear but refuse to understand.

“Don’t wish me happiness I don’t expect to be happy all the time… It’s gotten beyond that somehow. Wish me courage and strength and a sense of humor. I will need them all.”

“The sea does not reward those who are too anxious, too greedy, or too impatient. To dig for treasures shows not only impatience and greed, but lack of faith. Patience, patience, patience, is what the sea teaches. Patience and faith. One should lie empty, open, choiceless as a beach—waiting for a gift from the sea.”

“I must write it all out, at any cost. Writing is thinking. It is more than living, for it is being conscious of living.”

The innermost pain is most felt without crying, it’s the pain that comes from the heart.  You feel alone but the soothing music lifts you up and those lovely words make you smile.

(WordPress says this is my 1,673rd post)

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It’s another “it’s been a while” post that you would probably get from me from time to time.  It was a busy weekend and another busy day for gardening. I am taking advantage of the cloudy afternoon skies and the cool early morning breeze.  We have occasional thunderstorms lately but PAGASA says it is not yet the official start of the rainy season.  It has become even more humid in fact so the afternoon showers are welcome.

Gardening is hard, who says it is not? I have to dig and uproot stubborn and unwanted weeds, trim the Green dust plants, do a perfectly imperfect round shape of  my several Fukien Tea plants and dig, dig some more. I am getting good at it…haha!  To think I haven’t even started  trimming our carabao grass but at least the concrete stepping-stones are now  clear of unwanted  overgrown carabao grass. It is hard to maintain a garden no matter how small it is. One has to invest one’s time  and extra effort to make everything grow. If the weather permits, I’ll be harvesting Calamansi  (Philippine lime) this afternoon.

One thing good about gardening is the time you spend  by yourself, alone in your thoughts. You let your mind wander and you can even create a nice story while looking at your fingers full of dirt and stain.  It is all worth it though, gardening is a job that you have to do and happens to enjoy (not all the time).

I’ve switched back to another reading genre.

I’ve been reading so much chick lit the last few days, funny and sad stories of women from wonderful authors that I’ve  seen on Goodreads. This time though, I found two books by Michael Palmer, an American author who is also a doctor. I’ve read one or two books of him before  when I was searching for ways to cope with the boredom of being bedridden for half a year. I love medical thrillers and the jargon is quite familiar. There was a time when I was obsessed collecting all the books by Robin Cook, another American novelist and doctor whose writings deal with medicine and  other such topics affecting public health. If you have seen the movie Outbreak,  he is the author of the book where it was lifted from. It’s nice to read fast-paced stories again. I haven’t taken a single picture lately but I found a lovely shot which I took several years ago while traveling North to our hometown. would love to share it in another post. By the way, thank you for continuously visiting my blog, reading old posts that I have somehow forgotten. I was thrilled to find that my stats have reached an amazing 335,461 at the moment. Thank you, thank you so much.

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Sometimes, listening to news on the radio  or watching news on television give you that feeling that all they ever discuss is about the Bangsamoro Basic Law and  the Binays. I seldom write political blogs except for that time when Supreme Court Justice  Corona was impeached a few years ago. It was one event that I religiously followed, watching the procedures with mom  from 2pm until about 6pm every day for 41 days until the final verdict by the Senate. He was found guilty.

It’s early yet for presidential election 2016 but then all you see in the news are the exchange of ugly words from the Binay camp and some political figures who have plans to run. Binay is our VP, two of his daughters are in the Senate and Congress respectively, a son is the incumbent mayor of Makati City. Their official spokespersons are caught in their own mud by hurling insults to a neophyte senator questioning her integrity, her qualifications to run for the presidency (if she runs in 2016). It’s way too soon to attack a person who hasn’t even declared she is running.Now they are questioning the validity of her citizenship and just because she was one of those 10 senators who signed an early report/investigation in the Senate stating that there are valid reasons of ill-gotten wealth and corruption  and plunder charges.  The Binays always say that this is just mere “politicking” on the part of the people who don’t want him to be president.  Why don’t they just answer all those questions that are troubling  the people’s minds instead of those evasive tactics that they are doing?  The voters and the people have a right to know the truth. Why would you vote for someone who had questionable dealings in the past? Can they explain their vast wealth  which was allegedly acquired through corruption?

When it comes to choosing a candidate, most Filipino voters go by this, they vote for someone who is popular and who has a fat envelope to give out. Some of us never learn   from the past and some of us are so passive as long as the unfolding of events does not affect us on a personal level.  Perhaps it is about time that we consider those who are honest enough to serve and whose track record is beyond questionable.  Be selective and select the best no matter what his /her political affiliation is. There is a standing joke between my friends and I (this is a fact), some of these dirty politicians  always end up in wheelchairs.

On a positive note, I am so looking forward to the opening of our municipal library. It is now under construction. My son jokingly said that when it opens, I’ll be the first one to visit it. About a year ago, I asked our Mayor if having a library for the people of Cainta was in the can and I was surprised  when he replied that they will start it soon.  We’ve been here for almost twenty years and it’s the first time that we are seeing a new face of our town via countless projects that are now being done. When a politician has a sincere desire to serve his people, we’ll  all be on the right track.

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I was so looking forward to the month of May but it came and went with nary a thing that I could remember it by except the intense heat that it brought to the country. There were the occasional thirty-minute rains late noon or early at night which made me clean our small pond manually since we haven’t attached our new submersible pump yet. I miss our Koi fish which I used to watch early in the morning as they did their morning exercise of swimming back and forth in their small abode. Such is life, a certain phase of the journey has to end sometimes or take a back seat to give way to a new adventure. I promise myself though that I won’t take care of Koi again. I am thinking of converting the vacant pond to a garden with lots or ornamental flowers but I miss the relaxing  and soothing sound of trickling water every time I visit it.

I think I forgot how to blog. The past few days have been all work  and to tell you the truth I wasn’t really inspired to write a few lines. Maybe, blogging has ingrained itself so much in my psyche that life feels a little wanting without writing my thoughts so here I am again trying to organize them.

June, what have you got in store for me?

A few nights ago, I dreamed of fireflies, those tiny insects that my cousins and I used to catch at night when we were kids. We would put them in empty glass jars and watch the tiny flames in their bodies. I dreamed I was in the middle of a meadow watching the fireflies dance and waiting for the stars to show themselves in the night sky. They are best seen in the darkest of night don’t you think? Sometimes I miss the simple life we had in the province.

My son Josef is turning thirty-one in three weeks. He asked me to suggest a place where we could spend dinner or maybe lunch and I jokingly told him, I haven’t seen a movie in a decade. And I mean, the big cinema is now a luxury that I haven’t enjoyed for the longest time. DVDs and occasional Star movies on television put a stop to that. We both laughed when I told him that I like a big bag of popcorn too. Why is eating popcorn so tempting when you are inside a movie house?

Welcome June, I hope you won’t pass us by too quickly.

“In early June the world of leaf and blade and flowers explodes, and every sunset is different.”  – John Steinbeck

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