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She looked –

As the sun merges slowly with the thin cloud

What would this morning brings, she thought.

Will it be better than yesterday?

Will it bring heartaches again?

She held the cup of almost tepid tea in her hands

Thinking of tomorrow.

The tea leaves have spread at the bottom of the cup.

And she wish she could read what’s written there.

She likes to believe happiness could be hers again.

Maybe tomorrow

Maybe in the future

She wish she could bring the smiles on her face again.

The tea leaves say,

Get up my child, dream on.

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Sometimes, we’d rather have those small and simple things in life to make us happy, right?

Josef ordered a small transistor radio for me to replace the old one I usually use in the garden. It has an FM/AM/SW 3 band, Micro SD and blue tooth. So convenient to carry around. I could listen to news on AM or tune in to FM for all day music.  So easy to charge it just like you charge a cellphone. Heaven ūüôā

I haven’t read for a while but I have a total of 120 books I have read this year as of last count from Goodreads. Years ago, I watched Love Story and also read the book I guess three times. Then I found a copy of Oliver’s Story and I got curious how Oliver would go on without his beloved Jennifer so I read it too. Lately, there is this Acts of Faith which was published in 1993 with 560 pages. I started reading it the other night, a story of three kids, one a Catholic who was abandoned by his parents and two kids, the son and daughter of a rabbi. From the tough streets of Brooklyn to ultramodern Brasilia to an Israeli kibbutz, and the splendor of two holy cities, Rome and Jerusalem, the story will bring us to these places. Reviews say that this is Erich Segal’s most ambitious and provocative novel to date. We’ll see, I am getting engrossed in it.

Simple pleasures and simple joys, they make life worthwhile.

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Do you remember?

The shy “hi” and “hello”

The hesitant smiles.

Then came the laughter

Listening to each other’s stories in between.

Crying on your shoulder,

And hearing those comforting words.

When friendship blooms,

Life alters.

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Five years from now,  we may look back and remember, 2020 was not such a good year.

It started with a fire in Australia and locally, we’ve seen the normally passive Taal volcano erupt, then this Covid-19 pandemic touched our shores followed by typhoons that brought havoc to some provinces especially in the Bicol region. Gosh, as if this is not enough, we still have this¬† government whose priority is not the welfare of the Filipino people.

We endure and we have to. I haven’t been out of our subdivision since February 2020. The farthest I’ve gone to was at the gate of the village where we have a grocery store. The items sold there are not complete and I kept urging Josef for us to go to the supermarket before November ends so we could buy things we need for the Christmas season.

We are still under general community quarantine although those with age 16 and until 65 are already qualified to go out to buy necessities, medicines etc provided we wear face shields and face masks. I wonder how we could renew Mom’s¬† social security benefits come January. She is the sole beneficiary of dad’s pension and beneficiaries are required to update their status every year so they could continue to receive their pensions. It’s quite impractical now for her to go out even with the car and a companion. I asked Social Security System (SSS) if we could apply for a home visit but they just gave a link where to write to and they never answered.¬† SSS has changed the schedule of dates where they will credit benefits for our monthly pension and horror of horrors, there are many of us pensioners who didn’t¬† receive our September pensions. SSS knows about this but they are requiring us to submit Statement of Account from the banks where our pensions are maintained. It’s their fault not ours, and they¬† have data base of all those pensioners they didn’t credit.¬† I am afraid this might turn into another hocus pocus of this government. They did that to Philhealth, 15B was lost thru corruption.

2020 is really a crazy year. I hope 2021 would be more kind to us all.

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I got engrossed for a while reading two books by Lucinda Riley consecutively in the last five days and before that, another book of hers last October. Read four all in all.  Anyway, I am trying to find more authors to follow. When I get excited with a particular book and a particular author, I  tend to look for more of his/her works.

Yeay, I only just discovered watching music videos on Facebook and those previous episodes of Pilipinas Got Talent. I am not bragging here but when it comes to music, Filipinos are the best. From ages about thirteen to twenties, they’ve got it.¬† There was even this Filipino shadow artist who had¬† the stage lit up in gold when he got the Golden Buzzer. So proud of these talented individuals.

Yesterday, I posted a photo  at Facebook taken when I got sick several years ago which was also used by my friend ( a producer of GMA 7) in their episode 24 Oras (Magic ng Pasko) four years ago. I know I featured that video here when they had their shoot here at home and included a segment of my plight as a cancer survivor. It earned a lot of hearts and likes.

I remember Doc Julie, one of my medical oncologists At the UST Benavidez  Cancer Institute eleven years ago. Those days when a smile  meant a lot  to me at the lowest ebb of my life.

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Gee, this is my 50th day of blogging every day.

I know I could not duplicate blogging for a year like when I joined WordPress’ challenge back in 2011. It was called Post A Day Challenge. I even got my badge but I don’t know why it was lost.

Blogging every day? One thing I learned when you blog daily is that you might sacrifice your content just for the sake of writing anything. But then in the process, once you start writing, it is easier to update your blog on a daily basis.

I’ve been reviewing my earlier posts so I could share some snippets of them to one of my favorite one-hour online shows called Interaktib. I am glad they appreciate it and my priest friends call it inspiring. Fr. Pao even said last night that I am their resident poet. Haha, poet indeed, I could not even write a poem daily even if I want to. I am surprised though that my earlier blog posts were more about life, that we always have those challenges that we need to face. It’s more about my journey as a cancer survivor, a mother and grandma to my loving Nate. From time to time though, burst of inspiration comes along and sometimes I am more introspective, sharing something deeper than what we had for dinner, what book I have been reading lately and what the weather is down here.

One thinks of getting and growing older. Come to think of it, I’ll be celebrating my 64th birthday a week from now and again it makes me think of the younger years. Maybe, what they say is true that when gaining these added years to your life, you don’t really think of getting old though you gain wisdom as you go along. You think more of how life would be. Will you still enjoy those things that used to give you happiness and laughter? Would you be more focused in those things you’ve been doing lately? Will you just let life fly by and enjoy them?

One thing that I wish right now? I hope I could maintain writing every day until the end of the year.

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Senior  moments!

I wonder if I have posted this before here but I found  it on my Memories page  on Facebook and again it reminds me of those days when dad was still alive.

Dad, Noel and I

This was taken forty six years ago when dad was recognized by the University of Santo Tomas for his exemplary record  at the high school department. My youngest brother was a first year high school student here and I was in my sophomore year in college. Noel and I stayed in UST until our graduation from college. He took up Electronics Engineering while I majored in Economics. Dad was so supportive of us all that he transferred  the four of us in UST during high school.

I remember the days when I was just a first year high school student. Our class begins at 6:50 am until 12:50 pm (all girls) while the  afternoon session was for the boys. Dad would fetch me at the exit of the  school and accompany me to the bus stop at Espana Blvd. to get a ride. I was then new to the university.  Throughout my nine years of stay there,  I learned to adjust to high school and college life. Since UST is in the low-lying area of Manila, every time it rains hard, it also gets flooded. There were times when upon going home from class,  my classmates and I would remove our socks and would hike up our skirts to avoid getting wet all the way. There were even times when we would walk  about more than a kilometer (flood and all) to get a ride home.

I worked for about five semesters in college as a student librarian. Imagine the hardship of  searching for a ride on the way home at 8pm when my classes ended.   I remember those times when Dad and I will  have lunch together at his office after my morning duty at the library. I  only  used to work for six hours so I was on a full load  in my subjects.

My stay as a student librarian were the best years of my teenage life since those were the times I met friends, some of whom are still my friends until now. I learned the value of books in one’s life and how they enrich one’s knowledge through reading. When I was assigned at the Humanities Section of the library, I appreciated most of the collections there and when I was transferred to the Asian Section for a while, I learned to appreciate history and Asian literature.

How a photo would spark  wonderful memories,  for this is what it did to me today.

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I had a good chat with a former officemate from the bank and also a schoolmate from wayback high school. She was ahead of me by two years but I knew her because she was very popular back then.

I haven’t seen her for twenty years (since I left the bank) but we recently found each other on Facebook.¬† What do two good friends talk about after all these years? Several, we touched on our faith, our kids, our hobbies at the moment and the happenings in the government that we both hate. There seems to be a common denominator when it comes to our views on how this country is being run.

For the first time, I watched our Vice-President¬† Leni Robredo attend the Congress hearing for the budget next year. Recognizing her¬† inspiring role as VP since she was elected back in 2016, her achievements and projects during this pandemic to help Filipinos, both the opposition and the pro-administration legislators are seeking higher budget for the Office of the Vice-President (OVP).¬† She received the highest audit rating from the Commission on Audit in 2019. The OVP has the lowest budget appropriation for the last two years. The Vice President said the OVP initially proposed a P720-million budget for 2021, but the Department of Budget and Management set a budget ceiling at P679.74 million.¬† She was helped by the private sector in all her projects. They’d rather extend their hands to her than to…. you know who. Whatever they come up with and approve is okay with¬† VP Leni.

‚ÄúWe make do with what we have. That has always been the case with the Office of the Vice President‚Ķ Of course we will be able to help more people if we are given more. But whatever is given to us, we work with that budget,‚ÄĚ VP Leni said. She is a frontliner, not a politician.¬† We have this notion that VPs are only the spare wheels of the president, right? But VP Leni is doing her job well. Some call her Busy President.

 

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Here are some more excerpts from my¬† older posts that I’ve shared with Interktib.¬†They air now twice a week because some of those who take charge of the program are seminarians who have started their classes.

I have already shared those with check marks. Some go back as early as 2011.  I always look forward to sharing these words, touching a soul or two in cyberspace.

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So I blogged about my outstanding stats last night¬† and I still think that my blog posts on Mama Mary garnered the highest stats throughout the years I’ve been blogging. Hooray!

Got this early morning rants that I can’t simply ignore. I really don’t know what really is the government’s priority, it seems that they are not so focused in this pandemic. Even DOH’s daily reports seems to be lacking in substance.¬† We have reached almost 250,000 positive cases and it still keeps on rising every day. A few days ago, they discovered bigtime anomalies at our Philhealth system. The officials appointed by the present administration squandered 15B worth of¬† funds and the president just let the head of it resign because of ill-health? Amazing…in a bad way. Those funds are contributions from the working force of this nation. One is allowed voluntary¬† monthly contributions when you retire early until you reach the age 60. Once you become a senior, you¬† are not required to pay anymore. They say that by next year,¬† there will be no more funds for the people to use in case they are hospitalized. Philhealth deduction is the only way¬† that could help a patient pay her/his hospital bills. It’s our health insurance. I wonder if we will still be able to avail of it in the next few years.

Then here comes DENR  (Dept. of Environment and Natural Resources) who thought of dumping dolomite sands at Manila Bay because they want to have a white beach like what we have in Boracay. But this dolomite according to study is detrimental to our health. I wonder, once it rains hard, this might be washed away and garbage from other nearby towns would appear again at the shores of Manila Bay. Is this a priority? Duterte keeps saying that there is no more budget to sustain the treatment and prevention of COVID 19 and yet they have a budget for this synthetic sand to the tune of 389M when the baywalk  is only  500 meters in length. Environmentalists are definitely opposed to this project. Some estimated that 50M is enough, where will the remaining amount go? In their pockets? I say it is a misplaced priority.

On 30 January 2020, the¬†Philippine¬†Department of Health reported the first case of¬†COVID-19 in the country with a 38-year-old female chinese national. On 7 March, the first local transmission of COVID-19¬†was confirmed. But they ignored it. They continued the flight of chinese nationals into the country until they found out that some chinese living here have their own hospitals where they treat chinese COVID patients. I don’t know what happened, because they were not reported again. Duque, the secretary of the Department of Health was then even proud to say that the control is manageable until it reached what we have¬† now. No aggressive contact tracing was done until late.¬† Our senators are urging Duque to resign but Duterte keeps defending him. He is so useless in DOH.

We’ve been having this CQs¬† (ECQ, MECQ, GCQ, MGCQ) which means community quarantine since March until now. They can declare all those CQs in our midst but our economy is suffering. Many have lost their jobs and some have resorted to online selling to augment their budgets for the family. Come to think of it, this government even thought of having these small-scale/household business registered¬† and be taxed.¬† Why can’t they force those POGOs (Philippine Online Gaming Operators) from china to properly pay their taxes which are in arrears for so long now. Someone up there is beholden to china.

And the head of the nation hasn’t shown his face for I think more than a month now. He does not even stay in Malacanang.

 

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