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This Pandemic…


It is really sad that after more than two years of this Covid, lockdowns and people especially kids who were not allowed to go out, has a negative effect afterall. And it showed even if you were not affected by Covid.

Nissa and Obet brought Nate to the eye doctor for check-up over the weekend. His eye grade reached 300 both eyes. Being indoors has an effect according to the doctor. His eyes haven’t been trained for more than two years to far places/sites. The eyeballs have elongated so he is now nearsighted. You can count the number of times in your finger when they allowed him to go out.

Now wearing eyeglasses at the age of nine.

If I may say, Covid has changed my sense of hearing. I could not fully understand videos, songs, group discussions etc. It is slowly coming back now although I’m still finding it hard to listen in enclosed places. It’s just so noisy.

I wonder when this Covid would finally be eradicated. We still wear masks in going out. Lately, the Department of Health has reported around 3,000 people affected in the whole country.

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There’s that trigger again reminding me to start another blog post. I feel so lazy. I haven’t visited WordPress in a while.

I had a conversation with a friend from Canada (there were four of us when we were in college). Grace met an accident last Easter Vigil, had multiple pelvic bones fractures surgery which was not successful so she had a hip replacement surgery. Then she got infection in her gall bladder so she went under the knife again. Among the four of us, she is the only one who was not affected by cancer. All three of us had it, the two with breast cancer and me with colon cancer. Three survivors. Grace introduced me to their parish priest who also blogs about all of his homilies. I visited his site and left a few words via e-mail. He answered, how nice.

Last January, Sr. Thea, an FMM nun, told me that she was diagnosed with lung cancer this time after several years of being free from it. I don’t know about Precy since we haven’t gotten in touch for so long now. She changed her cellphone number.

Grace told me to be gentle and allow myself to grieve. Sometimes though, I still feel so low and couldn’t think of something nice to blog about. But I read, I am on my 82nd book this year. I found a book with Japan as the background during the 15th century. Just started so I don’t know yet if it is worth-reading or not.

I was laughing finding this on my newsfeed except that I no longer use a library card. I mostly read e-books nowadays and have my virtual library at Goodreads.
Another image the words of which I find provoking but it’s true. I remember a friend who told me once that the journey to life is not always a straight path.

Have a beautiful and peaceful weekend😘☺💐🌷🎉🎈🎊

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His full name is Alvin Josef. At home we call him Sef or Osef but his officemates call hi Alvin.

It is his 38th birthday today. Every year, I would take a photo or two on his birthday. There was a time I collated all his birthday photos which I started when I was new on Facebook. Every year we get to celebrated by ordering food online and sometimes I cook one or two viands when I am not so busy. I took a shot early this morning before he left for work at JP Morgan Chase bank. If you’re wondering why he is in maong pants, they are allowed as long as their shirts have collars. All their clients are US based.

I went to the wet market early to buy something to cook for dinner although Sef told me not to prepare anymore.

For the first time in a while, I saw the orange hue of the sky breaking into an early morning. The clouds looked three- dimentional paintings in the sky.

HAPPY AND BLESSED BIRTHDAY JOSEF. Love you so much.

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According to Wikipedia, Taal volcano is a large caldera filled by Taal Lake in the Philippines. Located in the province of Batangas, the volcano is second of the most active volcanoes in the country, with 38 recorded historical eruptions, all concentrated on Volcano Island, near the middle of Taal Lake.

Nissa sent me these photos yesterday. They celebrated Father’s Day in Tagaytay where the volano is located.

Beautiful, isn’t it🥰

Father’s Day celebration
Nissa and Obet

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Have you ever experienced being alone in a crowd? Have your loneliness got the better of you and you felt crying?

When we were in the province more than a month ago, I saw so many relatives and friends that I’ve never seen for years. I felt elated for a while talking to them, sharing about life and death and dying. Many of my cousins volunteered to cook every day and prepare snacks (until Alden’s funeral) for our guests who attended the 6-day wake.

I would look at his coffin and I would cry silent tears of goodbye. How hard is it to let go? How hard could it be losing a sibling who is very supportive of your own family?

I think of people leaving this earthly life, is dying like falling asleep but you never wake up? I remember my sis-in-law’s story when Alden died. She was at his bedside. According to her, he smiled and said, “panalo na”. Panalo na means we won or I won. I really don’t know what that means except maybe to tell the world that he was finally free from pain. He won over the three difficult years of his illness.

I lost interest in politics when Alden died. It seemed like there was a vacuum, some unfufilled yearning that I can’t define. This sense of loss brought me again to the question, “what is happening to the world?” They elected an unworthy man, a crook, a thief and a liar instead of a proven and reliable incumbent vice-president. They don’t want someone who is fit and experienced when it comes to people they promised to serve. Until now, there is still a question of election fraud, that those electronically transmitted results were padded. Imagine having transmitted more than 50% votes in two hours. They say we have the worst internet connection but the fastest transmission of the election results.

One time, my sis-in-law, niece and I were outside just letting the hot afternoon go by, watching Mae’s cats and their pregnant dog. I told Mae that she accompanies me to the sari-sari store nearby to buy something to munch on. “No need tita”, she said. She brought out a big box full of different biscuits and let me choose what to nibble on.

My other cousin twice brought mangoes from their tree during our novena prayers. Another cousin prepared pansit and soup alternately for our afternoon snacks during the novena. Two more cousins alternately lead the rosary prayers. You see it is the small things that count.

Feeling alone again and reliving the happy days.

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I lost weight worrying about Alden’s health before he died. It’s been 32 days since he left us. Everything is still vivid in my mind.

My cousins visited us during our 9-day novena to join us in prayers. They took some shots when we were at one of my cousins’ place. I can’t post them all here because they eat up my free space.

Our barangay is the highest place in the whole town.
Overlooking the town proper.

A few days after Alden’s funeral.

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I cannot remember now when I had my left eye operated on due to cataract. Since I had my medical insurance and Philhealth, I only paid for the lens.

Our mayor said we now have our own eye specialist, an opthalmologist at our hospital in our town. We can have eye-checkup for free. Since I need to have the right eye checked if it is ready for cataract operation, I went to the doctor this morning. My left eye needs laser and my right is ripe for cataract operation.

They ordered a new machine and Dr. Singson told me that they will just call in a few days. I texted our town mayor and told him about it. He said it will arrive in thirty days.

Hoping it is all for free. I thought I left one of my eyeglasses at the clinic since I could not find it at home. I went back to the hospital but the doctor has left and my eyeglass was not there. Kept praying to St. Anthony on my way home. Gosh, I finally found it mixed with the box of my medicines.

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For the past several days, I’ve been watching dog stories on YouTube. I am fascinated watching them play, it’s sad though that there so many mistreated, abandoned and left on their own. There were those whose furs have grown and they have become unrecognizable. There are many people too who love our furry friends and they bring them to the vets then adopt them later. Some are just puppies.

From sketches in stillness.

I am reminded of this photo by our eight existing doggies. Oreo, our Shih Poo is as playful as ever, our Shih Tzu Cookie is so “malambing”.

Our four other dogs have learned to adjust with just the two puppies left behind. They stay in the garage or dirty kitchen. They eat twice a day. They are our doorbell when there is someone at the gate. We named our two puppies Sadie and Max.

Max loves belly rub. Everytime he sees me, he would lie down and wait. Sometimes, Sadie would come along and lick my fingers when she sees me petting the former. She is my constant companion in the garden.

Indeed, “how beautiful it is to find someone who asks for nothing but your company”.

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After a week, we have finally fixed the overgrown plants but I have yet to change some pots which are broken. The carabao grass was trimmed by Josef except that very small patch under the Calamansi tree. I hope by tomorrow morning I’ll get to clear it. I have to hire one of our village’s maintenance workers to clean our front and side yards of weeds.

I could smell the lemony scent of the flowers of our Calamansi.

That’s Sadie. She is always besides me when I am gardening.

This is our small garden.

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Grief doesn’t end at the loss of the person you love. It grips you like a tight knot, the more you remember those days of old – the laughter and the tears.

At Maxine by the Sea with sis-in-law, niece and my brother Alden. Taken three years ago before we discovered he had cancer.

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