Summer is quite different this year. I haven’t experienced this stifling heat before. Humid, no wind, even the chairs feel hot.
Had to be outside again this morning to buy all the things that the carpenters need tomorrow. The hardware owner said I could just ride home with her staff when they deliver it. My goodness, riding on a truck is hot even if the windows are open. I won’t bore you with the details.
I was trying to clean my room of old utility receipts late this afternoon when I saw my old, old journal way back in college. You know those yearnings of a teenager for someone out of reach. You can write volumes of thoughts , you can write every day about your experiences. you can be a little more dramatic with your words. Teenage life – the days of discovery, the stirrings of first love (or so you thought). Whoever said that first love never dies must be lying. Mine did when I graduated from college. Absence does not makes the heart grow ponder, sometimes it makes you forget 🙂
In short, that old, old journal is now in a sack of carpentry debris and old utility bills. I saved some of my writings before during the early years which I copied here at WordPress when I started blogging. The rest are just ramblings of a teenager crazy in love….haha!
I am keeping a journal still and I have several journals and blank pages to fill but mostly they are a list of books I have read and still wanting to read, a lot of recipes culled online and through my readings, my monthly budget and total expenses for the year, lovely quotes from books I have read, writings about my life now and gardening of course. Really it is a smorgasbord of thoughts and how my life is now. My hard drive is full of Nate’s photos, those that Nissa sent to me via messenger, photos I took from my camera phone and my tab. Focusing on the family and enjoying the blissful years of togetherness and hoping that I still could see Nate to be a successful young man in the future.
“Some people believe holding on and hanging in there are signs of great strength. However, there are times when it takes much more strength to know when to let go and then do it.” – Anne Landers
Dreams And Escapes 