Archive for November 18th, 2011

I remember a friend who lives in Canada who said that of all the four seasons of the year, she likes Autumn best. Sure, each season has its own attraction but the play of colors that only Fall can bring fascinates her.  I’m envious, if I were there, I’ll probably take lots of pictures and document every changing color of the countryside.

You might be wondering who owns this lovely picture. A friend who lives in Netherlands is a photography buff. Whereas before she dreamed about visiting castles, she’s now living the dream because a few minutes from their place, she could always visit several ones. Her daughter enjoys traipsing around castle grounds and posing before the camera. This is located at the grounds of De Haar Castle in Haarzuilens  which is close to Utrecth.

I am imagining myself sitting on that bench either reading a book or just thinking about life – how lucky I am that I have reached this far, living a normal life again.  I could imagine myself sitting there just gazing at the still waters. It speaks of calm and serenity, two things that are sometimes lacking in this world.  The joys of  being alone in your thoughts but pregnant with meanings that only your active mind could conjure.  The joys of stillness and silence that you need everyday of your life.  The joys of spending quiet moments alone with God. How lucky could you get! But I am allowing my thoughts to wander.

I’ve neglected my favorite pastime  for two weeks now, opting to stay in front of the computer to catch on news, say hello to friends and posts some pictures of Nissa’s wedding. Reading will always be number one for me, but for the past thirty months, yes, you heard it right, thirty months, I was hooked on blogging here. More so when I accepted the “Post A Day Challenge 2011”. And I mean, I am literally blogging everyday. I am grateful though that I gained a steady readership. It’s a thrill for me when some people find my previous blogs on my journey as a cancer patient/survivor. I love sharing with them, make their day bearable for a while by  knowing that there is life after surgery and treatment. There is hope that one would get well to share  the journey.

Would it be early to say that I miss my daughter? I haven’t seen her since they left last Tuesday and I miss the nights that we talk about what’s happening in her office. I miss the greetings of “hello Ma” with matching kiss.

I would love to re-phrase this quote from E.B White, “I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.”  I would just love to enjoy the world right at this moment. I choose to dream of pleasant things that would make life worthwhile. I choose happiness over negative thoughts that sometimes linger in my mind.  I choose Today, I choose Serenity!



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