Archive for March 18th, 2011

It’s one of those mornings that I am particularly excited and at the same time I feel that sort of apprehension, hoping that the day would be favorable for me.  We left the house early to get the results of my ultrasound, laboratory tests and CEA marker testing  and to keep another appointment with my surgical oncologist, Dr. Samuel Ang. It’s almost four months since my last check-up last November 2010.  I asked hubby to get the results for me while I waited in the car for a  few minutes,  silently praying  that everything would be normal but at the same time telling myself  that  whatever it is, I will humbly accept it without complaint.

You are strong Arlene and believe that you are healed“, that’s a silent chanting  playing in my head. “Lord,” I said, You have journeyed with me the past two years that I’ve struggled to get well, I know everything would be okay.” Tears were silently falling when hubby handed me the thick envelope from the Diagnostic Center.  The results were not just okay, they  were excellent and they moved me to tears. My CEA marker is 1.2  (normal level is between 0 to 5) so I am  in the normal range. All my lab tests are normal too. CEA  or Carcinoembryonic antigen is a tumor marker, a protein found in many types of cells but associated  with tumors and developing fetus. It is useful in monitoring the treatment of CEA-rich tumors. It was almost a year ago that I’ve undergone CEA testing, right after I’ve finished my last chemotherapy  and a year is long enough to live a normal life without worrying about another test.

God really works wonders in our lives,  although at times it takes a major setback for us to fully realize it. God’s love is truly immeasurable.  Being healthy is a gift from God. I sometimes look back at the days and months that I was in pain physically and emotionally and I marvel how God made me feel secure in His love, knowing that those days were just His ways of telling me to always trust and never lose faith.  And I remember this message from Footprints in the Sand.

“My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you.”


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