You are very organized. You are the poster child for control and order, some people may even refer to you as a neat freak but remember, its the organized person that gets things done.
Archive for January, 2010
Posted in Closer to God, family, health, life, silence speaks, thoughts, tagged a bit of myself, family life, life, silence speaks, thoughts, thoughts and ramblings on January 27, 2010| Leave a Comment »
It was just a speck. I was fascinated. It’s not yet summer, and I wasn’t expecting to see this small boy of around 10 freely enjoying the soft afternoon breeze with his dark kite flying in the sky. This is my favorite spot, a place to watch the fluffy and cotton candy clouds on the horizon. It’s behind our house, an undeveloped phase in our area where most people take their morning stroll and exercise their dogs early in the morning. And it set me thinking, this laid back life that I am having now must be such a boring thing to most people. I seem to float through life without the usual enthusiasm, without so much perk and socializing has become text messages and occasional calls on my cellphone, moving in and out of this thingy called Facebook, adding and chatting with long lost friends in the process, and yes, writing my thoughts here in WordPress and updating my photoblogs at Multiply. Don’t get me wrong, I cannot abide spending much of my time doing nothing productive.
Six months ago, it was easier to plan everything that I wanted to do. I am one of those who live by some lists on what to buy, where to go, whom to see, what to read, what to cook for dinner or where to spend special occasions for the family. But six months ago, everything changed. Life could be cruel at times when you are not prepared to face what it throws your way. Sometimes, I look back at my life and wonder, what have I to show after all these years?
I was reading a blog by one of my friends regarding the support group called Carewell Community (Cancer Resource and Wellness Community), a non-profit foundation that provides support and hope to persons with cancer by helping them to become more positive and engaged in their fight for recovery. One of these days, I may find the courage to make a visit and share my own plight with fellow cancer patients. The pain might be bearable but the journey is quite difficult. You will never know how to completely empathize with a person who has cancer unless you have experienced the same thing.
I am just a cog in the ocean of life but one thing I learned while undergoing treatment was that, every suffering has its own reward and mine was this – I am stronger now to face challenges, never being afraid of what the outcome of my treatment would be in the future. And I am truly grateful for this experience because after everything that my family and I have been through, it has changed our lives for the better – more loving, more caring and becoming closer together.
“I asked God for strength, that I might achieve.
I was made weak, that I might learn humbly to obey…
I asked for health, that I might do great things.
I was given infirmity, that I might do better things…
I asked for riches, that I might be happy.
I was given poverty, that I might be wise…
I asked for power, that I might have the praise of men.
I was given weakness, that I might feel the need of God…
I asked for all things, that I might enjoy life.
I was given life, that I may enjoy all things…
I got nothing I asked for-but everything I had hoped for.
Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered.
I am among men, most richly blessed!” 12
The shot really is nothing exceptional. No sense of focus, nary a good subject. It probably would not even merit an amateur photographer’s eye. But it made me think of what life is all about – wonders of creation, freedom, lightness of being depicted by this lone bird which was captured on screen. And these clouds no less remind us of our own mortality, that nothing is really permanent, that we are just passing through. I just remembered that I took this shot right after the partial solar eclipse last January 15, 2010.
I wonder how long it would take before I could see something green again here. Some of my old ornamental plants have to be replaced . I am saving a few of them for propagation. Rocks and garden ornaments cost sky high, more so with ornamental plants. This would probably be our last big project this year.
Posted in Close to Nature, family, life, nature, silence speaks, Uncategorized, tagged a bit of myself, family life, life, silence speaks, thoughts and ramblings on January 24, 2010| Leave a Comment »
Hmm…I think I won’t be able to sleep well tonight. Just thinking of a lot of things makes me feel so much alive. Though my eyes are getting blurred staring too long at the screen of my computer, my mind is wide, very much wide awake. Or maybe it’s just the excitement of knowing that finally tomorrow, we’ll be starting on a new project – the rehabilitation of our garden. And I’m excited that a landscape designer will do the job. We’ll finally build a grotto for Mama Mary complete with a pond. I’d like to have a Japanese zen look in one corner. I wonder if some of my remaining plants will be used though. No matter, I’m just plain happy waiting in eager anticipation of what it would be like for I am sure it would be a little different from our existing one.
It’s such a shame that the mother of a suspected killer calls her detractors mangmang (dumb). She calls herself a genius and her intelligence is above most people, that’s why they don’t understand her. Then why can’t she see truth when it is staring at her in the face?