Where Do I Go From Here?

I am quite elated, no, I am in seventh heaven.  When I think of the fact that it would be my last day of chemotherapy tomorrow, I feel this certain lightness of being.  Finally, another milestone in my life is about to end.  It has been a long five months of hospital visits, appointments with my  surgical and medical oncologists, endless laboratory tests and being confined at home while under chemo treatments. It has been a long journey but I am keeping my fingers crossed everything would be well.

Though I am still a little bit apprehensive on the outcome of my latest CEA  (carcinoembryonic antigen) test, I am affirming that I am doing fine and okay. I have mixed feelings actually, if you know what I mean.  The oncologists at UST-BCI usually call the last session of chemotherapy a “graduation”, so I am about to graduate, wish me luck please.

But where do I go from here? I am looking forward to the days when everything would be normal again – gardening, blogging, catching up on reading, visiting bookstores, tinkering with my digital camera, and having detox therapy to flush out the toxic chemicals accumulated in my body.  Taking things slow, living life day by day, enjoying every minute that I am alive and kicking.  I have this dream of visiting Batanes,  if not next year then someday soon.  Oh glorious Batanes, when will I see your shores? Simple joys that make life worth-living.

My sincerest thanks to all my friends and my family who were with me during this journey, egging me on when I sometimes falter in my steps, saying kind words to make me smile, teaching me the value of patience and most of all, thanks for the love and prayers which could never be replaced by any material thing in this world.

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