Posted in blessings, blogging, journeys, life, Mama Mary, silence speaks, thoughts, tagged blogging, inspirations, journeys, life, my 1500th post, silence speaks, thoughts on September 8, 2014 |
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It has been more than five years now since I ventured into blogging at WordPress. It took me almost a year before I was able to add something to my lone post (a short poem, if I remember) because I didn’t even know how to navigate the site. I didn’t even know how to pick a nice theme that would go with what I planned to write about. Blogging at Friendster and Multiply before opening one at WordPress was quite easy but I was not able to save all my blog posts there when the two platforms bade goodbye for good. Sometimes I wish I could recapture what I wrote there but thoughts are fleeting, you’ll never know what would inspire you, something good enough to share, something good enough to write about, something good enough to inspire others too.
I started Dreams and Escapes because I wanted to share my journey as a cancer patient/survivor. I dreamed of inspiring people who are traveling the same journey with me, maybe not on the same road but with the same destination, that of getting well and living life without that extra baggage of thinking that we are not hundred percent fit. I was pleasantly surprised that a lot of them found my blog and they come back to update me on what is happening in their lives. That alone is one blessing that I treasure so much. Through the years, it has evolved into an online diary (well, sort of). Through the years, I have shared so much of myself through my short posts and I deeply appreciate the views, comments, likes and finding new online friends.
Life is hard. Who said it isn’t? Life is one long journey of faith, hope and dreams. Into each life some rain must fall so they always say. Sometimes though, that bit of rain becomes a deluge and it’s hard to see the sun shining through. Sometimes, you swim into it without knowing how you will reach the shore. Sometimes, you just stare and remember in some distant past how life has been. You wonder how you stayed standing still. You wonder how you got through the storms. You remember the days you cried. You remember the days you laughed with tears of joy.
I always look forward to this day. September 8 is Mama Mary’s birthday in the Catholic calendar. For the past three years, my blog has registered a tremendous leap and all because of my various posts on Mama Mary. WordPress must be wondering where all these viewers are coming from because they have sent three messages since last night saying that my stats are booming and my blog is getting lots of traffic. And all because of Mama Mary. Though one can’t measure how popular or how good a blog is, having more than a thousand viewers at any given day is so amazing.
Life may be hard but the lovely moments always stand out. The meaningful experiences always teach a lesson. Here I am, standing still.
You published your 1500th post on this blog!
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Allow me to be a little sentimental once more so I quote:
“May I see you again?” he asked. There was an endearing nervousness in his voice.
I smiled. “Sure.”
“Tomorrow?” he asked.
“Patience, grasshopper,” I counseled. “You don’t want to seem overeager.
“Right, that’s why I said tomorrow,” he said. “I want to see you again tonight. But I’m willing to wait all night and much of tomorrow.” I rolled my eyes. “I’m serious,” he said.
“You don’t even know me,” I said. I grabbed the book from the center console. “How about I call you when I finish this?”
“But you don’t even have my phone number,” he said.
“I strongly suspect you wrote it in this book.”
He broke out into that goofy smile. “And you say we don’t know each other.”
Ah, the joys of discovering what love is amidst the pain of suffering. Two months ago I read the book The Fault In Our Stars by John Green, a new author in my list and wrote a short review about it here hoping that I’ll be able to watch the movie adaptation someday. I’ve finally watched the movie yesterday through Nissa’s phone while teaching my grandson Nate a few lines of the song Bahay Kubo, a timeless Tagalog folk song that every Filipino child knows by heart ( would love to make this into another blog). As a stand alone movie, it was very good and it strictly adhered to the story in the book. Isn’t that what movie adaptations should be? Shaileen Woodley shines as Hazel Grace Lancaster, an intelligent sixteen year old teenager coping with terminal thyroid cancer. She was supported by Ansel Elgort as Augustus Waters, her love interest,who lost his leg because of osteosarcoma. I won’t go into details of the story, I am sure most of you have read the book too.
When you are going through the same journey, it does not need much to understand how it is to be afflicted with a terminal illness. You would understand the pain and insecurities one goes through while undergoing treatment. You would understand the moments that you almost want to give up on life but still you hold on because there are people around you who love you just the way you are, baggage and all. Watching the movie reminded me of my pain of surviving cancer making it easier to relate. Believe me, I had a good cry. Nissa said she cried buckets when she watched it. If you ever get the chance to see it, have a hankie nearby and a hot cup of coffee.
John Green says “there is no shortage of fault to be found amid our stars”.
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My Christmas countdown begins…..
Welcoming the BER months with anticipation and joy! It’s the month of the year when you think of Christmas, family reunions, Simbang Gabi, longer and colder nights.
Hello September, what do you have in store for me?
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I read about ALS back when I was into research of alternative treatments for cancer when I finished my six cycles of chemotherapy five years ago. Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS), often referred to as “Lou Gehrig’s Disease,” is a progressive neurodegenerative disease that affects nerve cells in the brain and the spinal cord. It sounds frightening and they say that there is still no known cure that would put a stop to it. I only heard of it again when I saw some personalities on TV doing the ice bucket challenge. It has become viral on social media. Are they doing it for publicity or are they doing it because they sincerely want to help people with this kind of ailment? I am not here to judge, I just noticed that those who have accepted the challenge, movie and television personalities that you get to watch every day are also urging and challenging some people in the government to do the same. I even heard one this morning commenting that the feeling of tingling sensations while the ice water touches your skin is similar to the pain one feels when he/she has ALS. I am not in a position to say something negative here but do you have to do it so you could help? Wouldn’t it be nicer if you would help even without doing the challenge?
There is this interesting article I read a few minutes ago published by health impact news entitled “Do you Know What You Are Supporting?” such chilling facts that make my skin tingle. I remember the times when I was on chemotherapy, after each every session for two days at most, you can’t even move your body and arms normally because you are so weak, as they say in Tagalog, “parang lantang gulay”. I remember the times I cannot even hold a spoon and fork because the tips of my fingers are so painful like they are being pricked by a needle when they touch something cold or anything metallic. What I know is, everyone who is afflicted with life-threatening ailments needs support group and that is sadly lacking here in our country. When I was under treatment, I longed for some friends to discuss cancer freely with me but only a few dared. Probably they thought that it would be more painful to remind me of it but I tell you , it helps a lot.
The ice bucket challenge has caused general awareness in some of us but how healthy really is an ice bucket poured down your head?In an article published today by Philippine Star, a leading newspaper here in our country, it quoted a well-known cardiologist Dr. Willie Ong who told The STAR that “in some cases the blood pressure may drop suddenly, causing the affected individual to collapse. This could be particularly harmful to the elderly, pregnant women and the ailing”.
Is it a fad, are they just going with the flow? What’s your take on this?
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Posted in blessings, Closer to God, journeys, photography, reflections, silence speaks, tagged Closer to God, Faith, inspirational, journeys, photography, reflections, silence speaks on August 24, 2014 |
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You speak of sunshine and blue sky
You speak of blue waters dancing on a fountain
You speak of innocence, of gentleness and peace
While you watch the doves dip their noses and wings
in the blue water.
What a lovely moment to feel serenity within.
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Posted in a simple prayer, Apostles Filipino Catholic Community, Closer to God, Faith, inspirational, life, place of worship, prayers, reflections, silence speaks, tagged Closer to God, Faith, inspirational, journeys, reflections, silence speaks, St. Padre Pio, St. Padre Pio Chapel in Libis QC on August 24, 2014 |
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I have often raised my hand in the silence of the night and in my solitary cell, blessing you all and presenting you to Jesus and to our seraphic father, St. Francis of Assisi. – St. Pio of Pietrelcina
I have often said in my previous blogs that when you are touched by God’s graces more than you ever expect, your heart sings with joy and gratitude.
The arch at the back entrance at Padre Pio Chapel. Notice the rosaries hanging there. A tremendous and overwhelming show of faith.
Yesterday, I was so blessed to be able to visit St. Padre Pio Chapel again after more than three months. This time, I was with some friends and a healing priest. Fr. Cris Bautista, MS belongs to the congregation of the Missionaries of Our Lady of La Salette. I was there earlier than the appointed time because I want to pray the rosary inside the chapel and write my petitions at the prayer room of St. Francis of Assisi. I am always touched by the silence and beauty of the place. I saw some visitors too wearing head gears, hats and caps with matching face masks. Deep in my heart I know that some of them are cancer patients or maybe cancer survivors like I am. Until now, I still wear face masks too when I am in the middle of a crowd and when I am traveling in a public conveyance. There was even a patient in a wheelchair being fed via an intravenous tube attached to his body.
The silent moments, the peace within, the joy of visiting a sacred place to pray. I always feel so blessed every time I have the opportunity to come here. This time though, I call it a truly blessed Saturday for me and my friends. Fr. Cris prayed with us, anointed us with Holy Oil and we sang with him songs for Mama Mary (Salve Regina) , we prayed in thanksgiving for our health and healing – memorable moments that made my day complete, and the tears flowed freely while Fr. Cris was praying with us. What a beautiful message faith brings, trusting in the Lord’s goodness, secure in His love.
I posted this simple prayer at our online page this morning.
I choose to be brave
I choose to be strong
I choose to have an unshakable faith despite the raging storms in my life.
St. Padre Pio, please pray for me.
Mama Mary, thank you.
Lord Jesus, bless me.
Fr. Cris gave us rosaries and prayer pamphlets of Padre Pio. September 23 is a special day for Padre Pio devotees. It is his feast day. I’ve long wanted to buy a biography of Padre Pio. One of these days, I will visit St. Paul’s publication to find one.
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The wind bites
And I stay here
Summer is rainy
And I laugh
It is the middle of August.
The rain comes in torrents
but for a while
the sun breaks through
It’s a big, wide world.
And I smile at the thought
of another lovely day.
And I count the days
till Christmas comes.
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